I've got, somewhere I belong

What do I need to do to show you I care?
Somehow I just have absolutely no idea what it takes to get you to see that.
Maybe it for the best.
For the best that I do things your way
Cuz I can pretty much predict that it won't work; I know how two ppl work
I know what it takes to make a friendship work, I know how friends tick
But you and I have two very different perspectives in that area.
Your belief is in the fact that somehow your feeling will go away by being away from me
Fine, we'll try your way but your way isn't it.
But I promised you that we'll do it your way this time
So here we go.

But I can feel the inevitable looming
I know for a fact that the next time we even talk won't be because you suddenly feel better
It'll be you telling me you met someone else
I'm pretty sure of that.
But I have to trust and believe in something
And that means that I trust and believe in me
That no matter what happens, whether it ends up the way I want it to or not,
I'm gonna be ok
And that I'm blessed with the amazing life that I have now
And none of that's gonna change

Ah well, enough of all of that.
Went out with Denise today
Oh I missed that girl.


note to self: edit music for dance prac
Ok, i'm rambling already
Off to read Ian McEwan's awesome novel "In between the Sheets"
Ciao peeps

-This is what dreams are made of by Hilary Duff-

Since I'm not your everything, how about I'll be nothing, nothing at all to you?

I have no idea where I stand with you
I feel like no matter the effort I put in
Its never gonna be enough
It goes both ways, you need to help me by throwing me a bone once in awhile
and not just expecting me to do the work all the time

I know, I get it, you feel different
But you were also the one who agreed to this,
Who said you wanted to try to be just friends
Or atleast not the way things are now
Is this what you do to a friend?

You say guys and girls are different with friends
Hah, imagine if you did this to your female friends
Oh wait, there are none are there? you ever wondered why?
If you intend to have any rlshp at all with me( and for godsake I didn't mean romantically)
Then man up!
Get you shit together and work with me
Cuz i'm getting sick of feeling like I'm a fool
Feeling like i'm being taken advantage of

I asked you straight up
What do you want me to do now?
And flat out you said
No calls, no sms, no meets
Basically you meant get lost.

So I'm hearing you loud and clear
You'll get exactly what you want.
So basically, ball's in your court.



đ έ ђ ι § έ ™ loves Maxi says:
 Gotta draw a line.
Aarthi says:
 cuz i just feel so freakin used. and that feeling is just hard to get rid off. and i think if he ever says "oh hey, the feeling's gone." i gotta see how that figures into all that i feel now.
 exactly you're right
 all the while since the breakup i've been so focused on everyone
 like his friends hate me or he feels so bad and i feel guilty about it. do his parents blame me etc etc

đ έ ђ ι § έ ™ loves Maxi says:

 Think abt urself
 A break up shd just invole 2 ppl
 U & him
 Unless there's kids
 Like I told u before
 Ure hurting too
 Not just him
 Take care

She's got a point. and all i needed was for someone to remind me of it.
so you got your life, I got mine.
And right now,
all i feel is used.
So when you do finally feel differently
we'll see where we are. I'm sick of worrying about the whole world
I wanna just focus on me for once

-Irreplaceable by Beyonce