Hate on Me, Hater

I'm so late in updating!
Ok so i went for psych camp.
The people were nice and all...but the language thing.
Argh..I hate to even get into it here.
Just wish me luck for the next 4 years.
Seriously, broken english/bad grammar and juz plain bad english annoys me.
Its unprofessional, especially for a major that requires you to SPEAK. And in english.
Geez i'm gg to die there. seriously.

Anyways i came to a realisation recently.
Alot of things have changed, and maybe part of me being home for the last 9 months did that.
Whatever the reason, I feel emotionally I've grown. Learn to see the bigger things in pictures.

1)
I realised what it meant to be a gf. And i'm not talking the kind who does everything for the bf blah blah. But the one who realises to keep her personal life out of public eye. Not for the sake of myself or him, but rather or the sake of everyone else who has to read it. People who know me, know what i'm talking about. As for Ganesh, thank you, for being eva so patient with everything. It is times when we don't meet or don't really have much time that i can step back and realise the kinda person you are. Its hard sometimes, to be on the same page with someone completely, but the fact that you bother to try to do it is realli amazing. And your complete honesty and trust in me, for your security in knowing that you know me and for always being my listening ear for everything. Don't eva change, not for anyone. Cuz the world needs guys like you. Hopefully you inspire a few.


p.s. There's no other guy that i would trust to get another girl's number;)


2)
I don't hate anyone. I don't even dislike anyone anymore. I think of every reason I had for disliking someone in the past. Thing is, I don't now. It a weird way I have to thank some people for opening my eyes up to this. The people who u put in such high regard have actually let me down, who disappointed me and I feel stupid to have put them in a pedestal when the person I was disliking deserved it alot more. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! So here's my apology to anyone whom I've eva put at arms length cuz of stupid reasons. They are all gone now. Specifically to Yoga and Sapthala actually. I know they both can't read this but i feel a reason to say it anyways. They are both terrific people, whom i was keeping a distance from cuz of stupid rumours when i should have not listened to any. Whatever happened in the past is forgetten and I can only hope that you would do the same. I only wish I gave you all the benefit of the doubt alot earlier. And to Sel, if i eva made you choose, in ANY way, between ure two sets of friends? I def sorry about that too. 


Oh and hopefully really try to start being nice to everyone. No matter wad. 


3)
I realised the people in my life who i actually tell things to. The thing is simple..if you bother to read my blog, then you bother about me. If you don't, then guess you don't care about me as much as you think you might. To the people in my life who bothered about me in anyway, you guys are my rock. I love you guys tons and no one can replace you guys. Deepa, thank you for showing me that.. i respect you immensely for your mature thought. 


4)
I have learnt to be happy. Hah, cliche as it sounds, I'm doing things i love. Except dancing, that one I miss almost too much. I'm happy to be learning something in music again... and I'm happy to be writing. To finally have the notion that i MIGHT be able to actually finally write, like i always wanted to. Baby steps.


5)
I made friends with the people SOME label as "not normal" or not typical. Its juz sad that some give them labels and names w/o getting to know them. Its part of the reason for my whole emotional outlook on life. I'm about to study psychology and I think I don't need 4 years of education to tell this: People, including myself, should stop judging people by how they look or seem. 

Eh, i'm ranting so much.
Haha, OH OH
and everytime i tell myself i shall not talk about hate
Someone does sth or says sth racist/ or wadever-ist.
Its juz sad to see that in the century where we are fighting for equal rights for homosexuals or transexuals or wadeva is the fight that we're in for, we continue to still hate in other aspects of our lives.
Try spreading the love more peeps.
We may be brown/white/black whatever but we bleed the same red blood.
Stop hatin'
And maybe we'll get something great out of it.
Peace.

- Hate on Me by Glee Cast-