I've got, somewhere I belong

What do I need to do to show you I care?
Somehow I just have absolutely no idea what it takes to get you to see that.
Maybe it for the best.
For the best that I do things your way
Cuz I can pretty much predict that it won't work; I know how two ppl work
I know what it takes to make a friendship work, I know how friends tick
But you and I have two very different perspectives in that area.
Your belief is in the fact that somehow your feeling will go away by being away from me
Fine, we'll try your way but your way isn't it.
But I promised you that we'll do it your way this time
So here we go.

But I can feel the inevitable looming
I know for a fact that the next time we even talk won't be because you suddenly feel better
It'll be you telling me you met someone else
I'm pretty sure of that.
But I have to trust and believe in something
And that means that I trust and believe in me
That no matter what happens, whether it ends up the way I want it to or not,
I'm gonna be ok
And that I'm blessed with the amazing life that I have now
And none of that's gonna change

Ah well, enough of all of that.
Went out with Denise today
Oh I missed that girl.


note to self: edit music for dance prac
Ok, i'm rambling already
Off to read Ian McEwan's awesome novel "In between the Sheets"
Ciao peeps

-This is what dreams are made of by Hilary Duff-

Since I'm not your everything, how about I'll be nothing, nothing at all to you?

I have no idea where I stand with you
I feel like no matter the effort I put in
Its never gonna be enough
It goes both ways, you need to help me by throwing me a bone once in awhile
and not just expecting me to do the work all the time

I know, I get it, you feel different
But you were also the one who agreed to this,
Who said you wanted to try to be just friends
Or atleast not the way things are now
Is this what you do to a friend?

You say guys and girls are different with friends
Hah, imagine if you did this to your female friends
Oh wait, there are none are there? you ever wondered why?
If you intend to have any rlshp at all with me( and for godsake I didn't mean romantically)
Then man up!
Get you shit together and work with me
Cuz i'm getting sick of feeling like I'm a fool
Feeling like i'm being taken advantage of

I asked you straight up
What do you want me to do now?
And flat out you said
No calls, no sms, no meets
Basically you meant get lost.

So I'm hearing you loud and clear
You'll get exactly what you want.
So basically, ball's in your court.



đ έ ђ ι § έ ™ loves Maxi says:
 Gotta draw a line.
Aarthi says:
 cuz i just feel so freakin used. and that feeling is just hard to get rid off. and i think if he ever says "oh hey, the feeling's gone." i gotta see how that figures into all that i feel now.
 exactly you're right
 all the while since the breakup i've been so focused on everyone
 like his friends hate me or he feels so bad and i feel guilty about it. do his parents blame me etc etc

đ έ ђ ι § έ ™ loves Maxi says:

 Think abt urself
 A break up shd just invole 2 ppl
 U & him
 Unless there's kids
 Like I told u before
 Ure hurting too
 Not just him
 Take care

She's got a point. and all i needed was for someone to remind me of it.
so you got your life, I got mine.
And right now,
all i feel is used.
So when you do finally feel differently
we'll see where we are. I'm sick of worrying about the whole world
I wanna just focus on me for once

-Irreplaceable by Beyonce

That is what I do believe

I believe in following your heart
I believe in using your head


I believe in education and success
I believe in passion and drive


I believe in stability
I believe in risk-taking


I believe in honesty
I believe in secrecy


I believe in doing the right thing all the time
I believe in white lies


I believe in luck
I believe in making your own luck


I believe in fate 
I believe in writing your own destiny


I believe in hate
I believe in love


I believe in compromise 
I believe in sacrifice


I believe in families and friendships
I believe in solitude


I believe in marrying the one you love
I believe in falling in love after marriage


I believe in being with the one you love
I believe in loving the one you're with


I believe the natural order
I believe in equality for all


I believe in God and Faith
I believe in Science and Logic


I believe things I see and feel
I believe in the unexplainable


I believe in the good in people 
I believe the devil in them too


I believe in the power of music
I believe in the annoyance of noise


I believe in dreams
I believe in reality


I believe in rationality 
I believe that nothing is impossible


So what am I?
A woman of morals or a woman of spontaneity? 
A theist or a person of logic?
An equal rights activist or a believer in nature's way?
An extrovert or an introvert?


There is no need to pick a side
No black or white "right thing to do"
There is just beliefs. 
And there is no limit, no classification, no labels
But in the end, I truly believe in just one thing
I believe that I'm a believer

And isn't that all that matters?

-I believe by Yolanda Adams-

You should have listened, there is someone here inside

I'm moving I'm moving!!! :)
YESH!!!
Ok, so I wasn't that excited initially but I am now.
Parents just recently purchased a beautiful to-be-built condo called Blossom Residences.
And we have our unit and everything.

Its absolutely wonderful. Three bedrooms, 4bathrooms, a completely a/c house and a poolside view.
BEST! best part of it all, one of the bedrooms comes with its own attached bathroom and ENTRANCE
Like woah! Sis and I are still negotiating who gets that but I think she might want me to have it. Imagine the privacy! Its like having my own little house.

Most importantly i guess its nice to know that our travel and stuff is not affected.
Dad is amazing at financial planning and I think he has really thought this through.
I'm gonna miss Jurong though, all my awesome friends are here but I'm not that far off.
I'll be living in Bukit Panjang and its super close to the mrt so its still all good!
Ok, I have to be up for sch. I don't why I'm still rambling.

Anyways, met Denise for dinner today.
Ah, always a joy.
Its all cuz of her that "Listen" is stuck in my head

Ok, I'm off topic already. I need to sleep. Night world! :)

-Listen by Beyonce-

Thank God I dodged the bullet

What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out


[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
I said, you turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'll never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye

[Chorus]
I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I will always be the, best thing you never had.
Best thing you never had!

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh I will never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

Goes around, comes back around
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now

**This song is starting to be the anthem of my life. Jeez. It eerily accurate how when you replied, the lyrics "Thank god I dodged the bullet" played right then. Freaky.I don't believe in coincidences. But I believe in karma. Hey, life goes on right? Nice to know that nothing's changed. I was right. 


You never changed. Never will**


-Best thing I Never Had by Beyonce-

And a day will come when the fight is won

Oh my god, I just realise how many posts are still unpublished.
Ah well I'll publish them when I have the mood
I promised myself that I would start writing again.
I'm losing my drive, I have to get it back.
The next great novel. HAHA. Ok, guess its always fun to aim high
Even if no one in the world reads it, I'll actually be really happy if it was just written for me.
And maybe a few of my family.
Dreams right?

I absolutely adore the quotes from OTH. One of the best ways to end season 6 was with this amazing saying. Its true. Believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do:)

Marvin "Mouth": Take a look at yourself in the mirror, who do you see looking back?
Haley: Is it the person you wanna be?
Dan: Or is there someone else you were meant to be, the person you should have been but fell short of.
Mia: Is someone telling you,you cant or you wont? Because you can.
Chase: Believe that love is out there.
Nathan: Believe that dreams come true everyday because they do.
Peyton: Sometimes happiness doesn't come from money or fame or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family and from the quiet nobility of leading a good life.
Julian: Believe that dreams come true everyday because they do.
Brooke: Believe that dreams come true everyday because they do.
Peyton: So take a look in that mirror and reminds yourself to be happy, because you deserve to be. Believe that.
Lucas: And "Believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do"

<3<3<3 oth, they were a fantastic show. Anyways, I've been listening to alot of Kate Voegele recently. I heard about her first from OTH where she plays Mia but I'm hopeless addicted to her music now. The girl is talented like nobody's business.

I'm starting to like tons of tumblr posts. I keep coming across this amazing ones.
Tons of talk lately about finding "The One"
and finding that soulmate
I'm not sure how much I believe in those things
I believe that people do meet by chance, but how we make it work, depends on the effort we put into it.
Does luck and "soulmate" and fate have a say in it? Who knows, maybe eh?

-Lift me up by Kate Voegele

A different lover is not a sin

Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty this hatred. How did it find us, did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us that we now send our children into the world like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return but knowing some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name...is it your name? - Lucas Scott (One Tree Hill)


I read the blog post of an old friend recently and it got me thinking about the whole gay rights issue that has forever been an ongoing debate.


Don't get me wrong, I'm as straight as an arrow but yet I can see the plight of those who choose to love away from the norm. What exactly is wrong with that?  The idea that God or the universe made us a certain way and its the only way to live is absurd. We make our own choices in the world and while I'm not religious, I do believe that God gives us the chance to make that choice, be it right or wrong. The right to love someone, regardless of gender, is still a right. You can't beat the gay out of someone anymore than they can beat the ignorance out of u. 


I saw this in the words of a person struggling everyday, simply because of who he is:


"..while it was easy for me to come to terms with my sexuality, it took me a while before i opened up to people..... at times, even being in a setting of all gay people, i feel that i just have to conceal my sexuality. whatever my reason behind that, i have totally no idea. "


So stop the hate. It seems ridiculous that while we have more problems in the world like hunger and poverty, we add on to the hate by simply making a small issue even bigger. 

I love this: credits to tumblr.

-Born this way by Lady Gaga(no other song could have done this post justice)