That is what I do believe

I believe in following your heart
I believe in using your head


I believe in education and success
I believe in passion and drive


I believe in stability
I believe in risk-taking


I believe in honesty
I believe in secrecy


I believe in doing the right thing all the time
I believe in white lies


I believe in luck
I believe in making your own luck


I believe in fate 
I believe in writing your own destiny


I believe in hate
I believe in love


I believe in compromise 
I believe in sacrifice


I believe in families and friendships
I believe in solitude


I believe in marrying the one you love
I believe in falling in love after marriage


I believe in being with the one you love
I believe in loving the one you're with


I believe the natural order
I believe in equality for all


I believe in God and Faith
I believe in Science and Logic


I believe things I see and feel
I believe in the unexplainable


I believe in the good in people 
I believe the devil in them too


I believe in the power of music
I believe in the annoyance of noise


I believe in dreams
I believe in reality


I believe in rationality 
I believe that nothing is impossible


So what am I?
A woman of morals or a woman of spontaneity? 
A theist or a person of logic?
An equal rights activist or a believer in nature's way?
An extrovert or an introvert?


There is no need to pick a side
No black or white "right thing to do"
There is just beliefs. 
And there is no limit, no classification, no labels
But in the end, I truly believe in just one thing
I believe that I'm a believer

And isn't that all that matters?

-I believe by Yolanda Adams-

You should have listened, there is someone here inside

I'm moving I'm moving!!! :)
YESH!!!
Ok, so I wasn't that excited initially but I am now.
Parents just recently purchased a beautiful to-be-built condo called Blossom Residences.
And we have our unit and everything.

Its absolutely wonderful. Three bedrooms, 4bathrooms, a completely a/c house and a poolside view.
BEST! best part of it all, one of the bedrooms comes with its own attached bathroom and ENTRANCE
Like woah! Sis and I are still negotiating who gets that but I think she might want me to have it. Imagine the privacy! Its like having my own little house.

Most importantly i guess its nice to know that our travel and stuff is not affected.
Dad is amazing at financial planning and I think he has really thought this through.
I'm gonna miss Jurong though, all my awesome friends are here but I'm not that far off.
I'll be living in Bukit Panjang and its super close to the mrt so its still all good!
Ok, I have to be up for sch. I don't why I'm still rambling.

Anyways, met Denise for dinner today.
Ah, always a joy.
Its all cuz of her that "Listen" is stuck in my head

Ok, I'm off topic already. I need to sleep. Night world! :)

-Listen by Beyonce-

Thank God I dodged the bullet

What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out


[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
I said, you turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'll never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye

[Chorus]
I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I will always be the, best thing you never had.
Best thing you never had!

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh I will never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

Goes around, comes back around
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now

**This song is starting to be the anthem of my life. Jeez. It eerily accurate how when you replied, the lyrics "Thank god I dodged the bullet" played right then. Freaky.I don't believe in coincidences. But I believe in karma. Hey, life goes on right? Nice to know that nothing's changed. I was right. 


You never changed. Never will**


-Best thing I Never Had by Beyonce-

And a day will come when the fight is won

Oh my god, I just realise how many posts are still unpublished.
Ah well I'll publish them when I have the mood
I promised myself that I would start writing again.
I'm losing my drive, I have to get it back.
The next great novel. HAHA. Ok, guess its always fun to aim high
Even if no one in the world reads it, I'll actually be really happy if it was just written for me.
And maybe a few of my family.
Dreams right?

I absolutely adore the quotes from OTH. One of the best ways to end season 6 was with this amazing saying. Its true. Believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do:)

Marvin "Mouth": Take a look at yourself in the mirror, who do you see looking back?
Haley: Is it the person you wanna be?
Dan: Or is there someone else you were meant to be, the person you should have been but fell short of.
Mia: Is someone telling you,you cant or you wont? Because you can.
Chase: Believe that love is out there.
Nathan: Believe that dreams come true everyday because they do.
Peyton: Sometimes happiness doesn't come from money or fame or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family and from the quiet nobility of leading a good life.
Julian: Believe that dreams come true everyday because they do.
Brooke: Believe that dreams come true everyday because they do.
Peyton: So take a look in that mirror and reminds yourself to be happy, because you deserve to be. Believe that.
Lucas: And "Believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do"

<3<3<3 oth, they were a fantastic show. Anyways, I've been listening to alot of Kate Voegele recently. I heard about her first from OTH where she plays Mia but I'm hopeless addicted to her music now. The girl is talented like nobody's business.

I'm starting to like tons of tumblr posts. I keep coming across this amazing ones.
Tons of talk lately about finding "The One"
and finding that soulmate
I'm not sure how much I believe in those things
I believe that people do meet by chance, but how we make it work, depends on the effort we put into it.
Does luck and "soulmate" and fate have a say in it? Who knows, maybe eh?

-Lift me up by Kate Voegele

A different lover is not a sin

Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty this hatred. How did it find us, did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us that we now send our children into the world like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return but knowing some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name...is it your name? - Lucas Scott (One Tree Hill)


I read the blog post of an old friend recently and it got me thinking about the whole gay rights issue that has forever been an ongoing debate.


Don't get me wrong, I'm as straight as an arrow but yet I can see the plight of those who choose to love away from the norm. What exactly is wrong with that?  The idea that God or the universe made us a certain way and its the only way to live is absurd. We make our own choices in the world and while I'm not religious, I do believe that God gives us the chance to make that choice, be it right or wrong. The right to love someone, regardless of gender, is still a right. You can't beat the gay out of someone anymore than they can beat the ignorance out of u. 


I saw this in the words of a person struggling everyday, simply because of who he is:


"..while it was easy for me to come to terms with my sexuality, it took me a while before i opened up to people..... at times, even being in a setting of all gay people, i feel that i just have to conceal my sexuality. whatever my reason behind that, i have totally no idea. "


So stop the hate. It seems ridiculous that while we have more problems in the world like hunger and poverty, we add on to the hate by simply making a small issue even bigger. 

I love this: credits to tumblr.

-Born this way by Lady Gaga(no other song could have done this post justice)

We could have had it all

Back from the cruise!

I got a fab massage, jet-ski-ed, mini-golf-ed, and got myself a tan. ah, life is good. (My tan's gone though)

Completely relaxing and well-needed trip with the family. 

Don't really like cruises though... I realise I love my holidays where I'm exploring a country

I get bored easily. Cruise ships are fun for awhile but prob not something I wanna make a regular thing

I rather travel. Whoo. More fun! :)

though I have to admit, I missed my sister.

Weird going for a trip w/o her. She would have accompanied me on the rock-climbing wall. damn. 

Got pics! :)

Purely cam-whoring with my shades

My high-waist skirt is pure awesomeness!

Check out the water track left by the ship! so cool!

Sanjay jetskis off w/o me. That's me waiting for him to get back

lazy to post others. just gonna make a private album in fb.

Anyways, a weird idea 'bout guys and manners came up during the trip that got me thinking. We all talked about it and stuff. I guess it all started when we had this cruise night and it was "suit/tie and cocktail dresses" as the dress code. Other than the African Americans and the Whites and some of the other people there, so many people were so under-dressed. Saw a guy in a polo tee and jeans. Saw ladies who wore sundresses. COME ON! if you don't know the attire, google it! It makes you look so freakin' sloppy! Anyways, we had a conversation when we went for dinner at the fine dining restaurant on the ship called Romeo and Juliet and it all started when Shyam pulled out a chair for me to sit. Nothing new, he and his brother do it all the time when we;re out at a restaurant as a family. But it did get me thinking after seeing the polo tees and sun dresses.

(Cousin Shyam pulls out chair for me at the fine dining restaurant. both boys wait till I sit to sit)

Me: You know what, the whole world keeps saying Chivalry is dead. Esp in Singapore. But you guys prove them wrong!
Sanjay: Chivalry was never dead in Singapore. It never existed.
Me: ah true! how often is it that any guy who takes you out to dinner opens the door for you or pulls out the chair for you? I mean I'm not saying at burger king or sth you know. I meant like a restaurant.
Sanjay: Even if I dont have the chance to pull out a chair for a girl, I would atleast wait till she seats first. Its basic gentlemanliness
Me: Wah paerims, the boys are awesome man. Till today, cousin or friend, they have never failed to pull my chair out when we're going for dinner. Or even open doors.
Aunt: Really??
Me: Yep, gosh, rare guys!
Aunt: Good breeding, darling. Good breeding.

Fine dining etiquette was sth I learnt cuz I do it quite often with the family but even if one doesn't. Its probably important to learn. Its not about showing off or standing out. Its about not being sloppy and not messing with the integrity or location. Imagine you have a client when you grow up? you gotta learn which are the places and how to behave there anyways! Everything I learnt about right attitudes and ettiqute was from my family.....like my aunt properly put : Breeding. But you dont have to have learnt all this from family. Any decent guy who wants to take a girl out on a proper date at a restaurant...or simply wants to be a gentlemen shud prob know all this damn things. And ppl shudn't say SINGAPORE and use that as an exception. It makes us seem like we are people who are not rightly brought up and have no class.

Good breeding indeed. Why don't guys in Singapore actually bother? Its not about being classy or over the top or anything. Its simply being a gentleman. Simple things that you just gotta learn, whether u're gonna use it or not.

Learn how to open a wine bottle. A complete turn off when u share a wine bottle with your date and u have trouble opening the cork.

Learn the etiquette's of fine dining. Its bloody simple actually. Starters always start from the outside of the utensils then work your way in. Dessert utensils are usually on top. Food is generally served to all the ladies first. Works the same with the wine. Hold open the chair for a lady and push it in when she about to completely sit. Place the napkin on your nap(NOT AROUND YOUR NECK -_-)

Learn the etiquette of wine. Always hold a wine glass by the stem(drives me nuts when people hold the cup. There's a reason why ppl say to do this. It to prevent the heat from you hands from messing with the chilled wine.) Never chill red wine, though it ok to prob chill it abit(I like it a little chilled.) but always chill white. Red wine goes the more rounded glass, white in the slightly thinner. When you open the wine, you always smell the cork first, then do a taste with the wine(swirl lightly then taste). Only then do you pour the drink to the proper level.

Try to be nice: Hold open doors for people, offer to carry bags and always let a lady sit before you do. Its only simple courtesy.

Date Drinks: When you're on a date, and in a restaurant that is posh or sth and you order drinks for the table, ask the lady what she wants. If its a surprise or if you wanna take charge, always order wine! Don't be stupid and order a beer or hard liquor at a restaurant when your having dinner! Its stupid!

Its funny, I SHOULD'T HAVE TO BE BLOGGING ABOUT THIS. People should know. Every time I convince myself chivalry is dead is Singapore, ppl like my cousins prove me wrong. It says something. It means that it possible that ppl in spore can do this. They just don't want to.  Lazy bums is what I call them.

On a lighter note, its G's birthday! and his sister's too. Went to their 21st today. So here's a shoutout to the twins(esp g! can't help it la, i'm biased. hehe) 


Happy 21st birthday Ganesh!:)

-Rolling in the Deep by Adele(MY GOD, I love this woman!)-

And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair

Ah! so much to update. I've been slacking off.
Finals are up and I'm seriously running out of time. Gotta buck up!

Met up with my girls on sat! Yes, ladies night to celebrate van's Ms Vasantham and my exams and tasseh's love life. Awesome day:)
Then today(mon), I had an awesome gathering with my clique. Haresh, Jaya, Van, Tas and me. Oh, it was so good to see the guys again. They always bring the guys' insight that is always unique.
Can't wait to see them again for my birthday!!

Vanisha Rajendra, I am so freakin' proud of you. Winner or not, u went into this competition and you came out of it a winner nonetheless. You're a supermodel in my eyes.

I feel like sometimes when ure own you're own,you feel like u've become this different person
But come to think of it, I guess I have always been this person
I just changed or adjusted parts of myself when you're with someone else
Pretty normal right? When there's someone else in the picture, there's two sides to consider.
Nothing wrong with that.
But I definitely missed me.

I believe that if ure truely happy with someone, it'll show.
And people who see you will know.
You don't need PDA or endless texts or fb status and I-love-yous to show the rest of the world that you're in love
No matter the situation, I have always made sure that my personal life stayed out of public eye
Not because I don't trust anyone or anything
Just simply because I don't find the need to let the whole world know who i'm dating/talking about/ missing etc.
And its weird seeing you do that. Even if its simply a comment
Cuz that was incredibly childish of you
And your friends.
But who am I to comment right?
I just feel like you're being hypocritical. You say one thing to me and then I see you saying something else to your friends.
That's the difference between us. What I say to you and to them, is the same damn thing. Never lied to you in that aspect. Guess you didn't think to offer me the same courtesy.
Ah well, hey, one more reason right?
Life wasn't meant to be fair anyways.

Ok, I better get back to studying(or atleast attempting to study) and ace that paper. Ciao loves!

p.s. I am so obsessed with Get It Right. Lea Michele's voice is da bomb. She kills it!:)

-Get it Right by Lea Michele(Glee)-